Last day in Bhubaneswar for the Singapore students, they will be leaving at 4am in the morning. Well, we have been living together for the past 1 month, it's really hard to say I don't have feelings for them, it's really hard to let go. When I think of it, I remembered someone use to said: I have learn everything that I can, but still one thing I felt it hard to learn, it's learning to let go.
You know I'm not a guy with many word when comes to saying goodbye, which is why when my brother left bhubaneswar, I didn't want to send them, instead, I went to take a swim.
I was hesitating whether I should write this post, because there is so many things going right inside me, especially when your junior came to you and said: I don't miss India,but I miss you, I don't know why, but I do miss you. When your junior came to you and tell you: can I give you a hug? And you can see the tears rolling in their eyes.
I too, felt really sad that you guys are leaving, I too want to cry, but my crying doesn't make you guys stay neither does it make you guys feel better, which is why I hold on to it till you guys leave before I will do that. If my juniors have know me like my batch mate does, they will understand that I can cry for anything emotional. And right now at this very moment, I'm already missing them, deep down. Memories just keep flowing in my mind, photos of them shopping, resting, studying, eating, everything just came back to my mind all at one.
I thought they are a bunch of dull, null, difficult juniors but Loges was right, they are innocent and bunch of nice juniors which I start to cherish now. If I were to do this coordination all over again, I will, I will want to do it all over again. A mixed tinge of feeling that fill me right up, it's really difficult to cope with letting go.
You can really see them grow from this trip, I just hope they will stay positive, put down their comfort zone even when they are back in Singapore and just keep learning in the right way. Of course, stay independence and let other depends on you sometime like a group with flaws but strength that covers the flaws.
28 days just flies past, it seems like yesterday the juniors have just reach rourkela and I went to fetch them at the train station, it's like I just prepare the first meal for them, it's like I just allocate rooms to them, it's like we just started our chat in Room 15, it's like I bring the students to CWS, it's like I just order the cake for Tim and Fha's b'day, it's like they just started to be close with me, it's like I just open up to them, it's like, it's like so many other thing.
11.49pm now, 4 more hours to go and juniors are packing now, they will be leaving bbsr to kolkata and take their flight from there. I hereby wish them safe journey back home and take care, I will miss all of you.
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